Here I am again

It has been very hard to come back and write in my Blog for many reasons. I want to tell you all about the boys and my parents coming to visit, but it brings back many memories and feelings I want to remember and forget at the same time. Having my parents here was really a blessing, but I am going to leave it there until I am more ready to tell you specific events of those weeks, it is just hard right now.
Right now I can tell you that the boys are growing fast, too fast... Karl is starting to talk more and more. The blabbing is becoming more clear, and now he can tell me simple things that I can actually understand. I have also noticed that he is clearly bilingual. When asked to say water he always answers agua (among other words). Sometimes I think he knows more words than he actually can say and gets a little frustrated trying to express himself. And I cannot forget to tell you that he loves to dance!
Little Kaden is so easygoing. He smiles a lot... and he has an amazing smile, I just love it. Many people think the boys look alike, but I am still convinced Kaden looks like Erik, we will see. He just has those eyes that are just like Erik's (I am talking about shape, no colour). I can also tell Kaden has a fascination for his older brother, he just follows him with his eyes. And Karl likes his little brother, within his roughness he has a tender side for little Kaden. And sometimes he wants to be helpful, too helpful. Kaden doesn't really like pacifiers, whereas Karl is addicted to them. When the baby is crying Karl tries to stick his pacifier in his mouth to soothe him and Kaden always spits it out. I can just see Karl's face wondering why he wouldn't take it.
Today Karl went to visit Mormor and grandpa. I miss him, but it is nice to have some time for myself. Erik went to work at his friends office so it was me and Kaden. I had plans to organize Karl's closet and just put aside all the outgrown clothes. While doing it I realize how fast he is growing! My baby is a toddler and my other baby doesn't fit in those cute little outfits anymore! After finishing organizing I called my mom and asked her when did she realized I was no longer a child. She answered around 10, when my brother Klaus (11 then) told her that she had her friends, he had his friends and Kurt and I had our friends, and it was time for her to respect our privacy and to give us time to enjoy other people. I was left thinking that after this summer when Karl turns 2 I will have "only" 8 years left to enjoy their childhood. But I hope for more, after all they are always going to be my children and my babies.
So as I was saying, I had planned to enjoy my "spare" time, maybe grab a magazine and lay down in the couch... but no, it didn't happen... I don't know where the time went, now it is midnight and I am off to bed.